when i am sad

also, i was never trying to complain or call myself ugly when i posted that list. i was simply pointing out that even though i don't have the qualities that society and the media say are beautiful, i still spend at least 10 hours a day looking at myself. whether through quick glances in a door window as i walk by or brushing my teeth in the morning, i enjoy looking at myself. beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder. truly.

salvaaaation

oh geez. i just locked myself out of my house for about 2 hours. i just sat outside and waited for someone to get home. no one did. so i broke in through my roommate's window. i don't plan on telling her about that. thats the highlight of my week.

work is blah. i would rather have a different job but i can't afford to quit without a backup plan. [no dad, you do not count as a backup plan.]

san francisco in the mid 60's

know what movie i hate? fear and loathing in las vegas. if i want to waste 2 hours trying to experience drug induced trips, i will simply do drugs. i'm so tired of this movie.

lazy tuesdays

so far today i have only done seven things worth mentioning:
pee
pee
pee
pee
pee
pee
pee
nothing else.

bah de dah de dah dah

awful awful awful. no one should even treat their close friends that way and for some reason i hardly saw it coming. i definitely considered the possibility, but i also just thought it was different. i thought he was different. i thought i was different. he's not, i'm not, it wasn't.

work is new and good. tina from work is new and good. hanging out with tina from work is new and good. i need to go shower and then hopefully tina will be off work and we can go do shtuff.

today was the worst day to work because i had to wake up early and there were maybe 5 sales for the whole 4 1/2 hours i was there. which obviously means no tips. none. which means i made about $20 today. i would have rather paid pete $20 to sleep. dannnnng.

my bank account balance is $979.97. i think thats higher than it ever was all summer.