oh cooooooooool

the drive down to the beach.
i wish you could see jen a little better because she is OUT.

double whoa squared

today my dad cut up my debit card. and then i stabbed him in the eye with his scissors.

whoa! deja vu!

but what really happened was that i overdrew my account again somehow. so he balanced it out and took my card away. when he took it, i said, "yeah, cut it up." JOKING obviously. but 5 minutes later, he came and found me carrying 10 little strips of a wells fargo debit card. he showed it to me and i just started bawling. then he said, "maybe you should go for a walk." HAH. so i officially have $2 cash to my name.

whoa! i'm rich biotch!

a couple things

joe, ashley, matt and i were swimming in matts pool. joe said to matt, "your girlfriend is a whale!" i was so embarrassed.

jeff had been calling me "alaska" for about a week. finally i asked him why. he said, "you're the biggest one in our family."

i'm just sitting on the shelf

don't worry jen. i have one for you too. i just couldn't upload it.

one minute to midnight.

i wanted to blog about a dream i had. it has a little bit of language but i shall censor it.

so i'm at some food store with my mom. not like a grocery store, like a fast food store. and we order food and i'm like "oh hey mom, i'll pay for this." so she goes to sit, and then i hand the guy my card and he swipes it and says it was rejected. and THEN he cut it! and i said "what the HECK are you doing?!" and he said, i have authorization to destroy credit cards that get rejected. so then i'm all, "that's not my credit card, that's my F-ING debit card!" so then mom comes up and she's like, "trish whats the problem?" so then i start to tell her but i get so mad that i grab the scissors that he cut my card with and i stab him in the eye. gruesome i know, but then i stab him a lot more after that. and when i woke up, i was all worried about the dream. not about having stabbed a fast food worker with his own scissors, but about having my debit card cut up.

money means more to me than a strangers life. i have a lot of thinking to do.

[p.s. its funny that the only believable part of the dream is that my card got rejected. so f-ing typical.]

[p.p.s. when emma laughs, she says "hahah laughing." like she tells you that she was laughing after she laughed. hahah laughing.]

memories can't wait.

today is my dad's birthday. [aubrey your dad's too] i woke up and got ready for church altogether wayyy too early. so now i am sitting around waiting to leave. how come this never happened while i was in college?

i'm going back to work at mcdonalds on tuesday. i can't help it. cause even though they don't pay me near enough for all the crap i put up with, i still love it there. i went in there last wednesday and i saw trudy and ms. d and francesca and i couldn't help but want to go back there. i'll still be working for my dad occasionally but i think it'll be good for me to have a job where everyone is genuinely excited to see me.

yesterday i went and played laser tag with my family. it was fun but right before we left i had this major breakdown. dad told me to go change out of the dress i was wearing and i started crying so hard that i couldn't even walk up the stairs.

jeff asked me the other day, with a completely straight face, if i was going to die. my parents didn't tell any of my siblings what was going on, just that it was "health problems." i told jeff that i probably wouldn't but it was a possibility and he told me that he loved me.

this is a lame and boring blog but i have to get back into blogging somehow. so there is my upd-upd-update remix!

virgin[ia]

today i had blood drawn from my hand. it was actually pretty painful.

apparently everyone in the world is getting married except for me. example: olivia bradley. [do you remember her amanda? she's like 12!!!] and this is the worst: BRITTANY SNYDER! wtf. who saw that coming? and i am mostly directing this paragraph at amanda and jen because no one else knows who i'm talking about. except maybe brett in which case he is included as well.

i've been pretty active so far today which means now i will sleep the rest of the day away. i woke up at 630 and made everyone pancakes. then i took the girls to school. then i made a doctors appointment and went to the doctors appointment. then i got an extension on my online classes and got dad a birthday present. now sleep.

look! i still know how to blog!

tuesday bruiseday

i'm just gonna blast some taking back sunday and get my packing done. and then tomorrow, i shall clean.

nothing gets me motivated like some 9th grade memories!

HAHA.

and just pretend that nothing ever happened.

i've realized that with honesty box, facebook just got a whole lot creepier. did you know you can send someone an honesty box message without being friends with them? CREEPYSTALKERHONESTY.

change is hard. i should know.

i had some bad habits to quit while i was in vegas. andrea helped me.







okay thats a joke but i do like that picture.

HAHAHA

amanda- what were those 3 things that julia fullmer used to always talk about when she taught our laurel's lesson? one thing was about the crack in her head and OH the journalism thing. and what else? its been killing me for a while and then i just told jen about it as well. i need your help about the last one.

it won't be long. yeah!

i'm still awake [32 hours now] and i can't seem to fall asleep.
so its picture time!



















in the bellagio.



















also in the bellagio.



















being a statue.















andrea praying to the indian gods and the catholic gods.















beautiful vegas sky when we left.

there are more but this is already annoying and too much.

candy ghosts

andrea and i drove to vegas last night. i haven't slept since 9 am yesterday morning. unless you count the two power naps i took in the car. it was fun and i will upload pictures later. i think my brain just died.

whats wrong with the world?

tuesday sushi meets for guru's.
brunch club meets for dinner.
movie night meets for mid-afternoon.

duhleted.

i'm deleting my sitemeter because i am obsessive about it and check it far too often. and then i get frustrated because i don't know who is reading my blog.

please tell me if you do.

kthnx.

scheiße!

things i need to do today:
-take a shower
-get dressed
-call about my paycheck
-find a ride to the airport [next tuesday early in the morning. any takers?]
-start packing
-get a new bank account
-close my other bank account
-biology work
-make plans with friends i want to see before i leave
-call my landlord about cleaning checks
-check the mail
-send my rent check
-get some [right andrea?!] [at least before i leave that is.]

things i will do today:
-lounge around on the couch watching tv
-text people

love's a game

my parents are here now. i've been living each day one at a time waiting for them to get here. and now they are here and i don't know what to make my next checkpoint. when they leave? when i leave? i would make it for when i leave but i have no idea when that will be. i wish i had a specific day but everything is just so up in the air right now.

blah blahblah.

i like having friends that i just only know online. hahaha. it feels kinda creepy but also kinda new age and hip.

i'm so new age and hip! HAH.

in other news, i'm freezing to death in my own house! brrrrr.

lyrically speaking

i wake up and i'm fine. with my dreaming still on my mind. but it doesn't take long for the demons to come and visit me. and i've got my problems; sometimes love don't solve them and i end each day in a song.

augmenting my fame

i have about a week left in provo. depending on how my biology class goes. luckily, i was able to get tuition money back for my dad. he pretended like money didn't matter when i told him. i know he's secretly happy about it but i'm glad that he acted like he didn't care about the money and only about me.

i've never loved the church and my family and friends more than i do right now. i'm so grateful for the outpour of love and support i've gotten from everyone.

love.love.love.love.

dream collaboration

i had a dream that i was getting married and nathan goodell gave me a skateboard for my bridal shower. haha what a great gift! i wish i would stop getting married in my dreams.