100! what should we do?

the atlantic was born today

i just watched great expectations. i'd rather be lied to about love than see movies like that and realize that nothing can ever be perfect. maybe thats why i'm so naive. because i hate being told the truth. i'll probably delete this post. i learned that from aubrey.

you are the dream unicorn

today as i was walking into the marb, i pulled the door open and out of the corner of my eye i saw that the person behind me was carrying about 20 lbs. of books. so i reached back and held the door to let them through. i looked up as they passed and saw the most gorgeous boy and the cutest smile on his face directed at me. so then i got all flustered and he stopped so as to let me keep going so i started walking [still looking at him] and ran right into another boy that was holding the next door open for people. so then i awkwardly untangled myself from not-so-cute-boy#2 and ran quickly down the stairs so that i didn't have to relish in the awkwardness of myself in front of the book carrying beauty. that could have been the beginning of something great. i then spent the next two hours of class imagining other ways i could have handled it and they all ended with bcb and i living happily ever after with 3 children in iceland. if only i hadn't run into nscb#2.
in other news, i'm playing aubrey's itunes on shuffle and "my heart will go on" just came on and that seems to fit so perfectly with this.

i want you so bad

andrea and i just drove all the way to american fork to take crystal some socks at work because hers were wet. then we got there and her socks weren't even wet. so gay.
i wish i had a crush on someone. i've been so upset about not having one lately that i think that if i ever get one soon, it'll be forced and not a good one. kind of like what they said on planet earth last night: "a sudden flush of vegetation is what every desert dweller waits for. and when it happens, they make the most of it." i'll make the most out of any crush i can get. haha.
it wasn't that bad hanging out with ryan all day on saturday. he's a funny kid and i can appreciate that.
i'm making fudge and other cookies and things today. i'm going to send some to jaxon and eat the rest. actually, i'll try to give it all away so that i can have the joy of making it without the side effects of getting fat[ter].
aubrey just got home and i'm on her computer. oh crap.

nray

I love Aubrey.
even if she makes me cry,
and then her boyfriend laughs at me.

A couple of times.