all the way

i just ransacked my ENTIRE apartment looking for my german book. it is GONE.

i'm watching deal or no deal and i'm getting so anxious and i want him to just take the money. that is a HUGE amount of money! he's gonna lose all of it!

in other news!

i went to a hardcore show with mike and phil last night. i told them that the crowd would all be a bunch of 12 year old hot topic kids and then we laughed about that. and they said that those kids were all my friends and we laughed [cause jokes about how young i am never get old.] and then we got there and i was right about the hot topic kids. and i laughed a lot during the show because it was funny and reminded me of high school. [not hard since that was like last year, HAHA. still funny.] the bled played and they were way good but they didn't play gemini and that sucked. and then from first to last played and i almost typed their name from first to laugh and that would be correct. it was a laugh. horrible. they played both the songs i knew but i didn't know them without sonny singing. then every time i die played and while i have heard their stuff, i only knew like one song and they played it and it was good and their whole set was really good.

i told andrea that today was the crappiest day of my life but i think it has gotten better since.

i really like mirah right now. a lot.

10 simple ways to get over you:

i started to write this list of really bitter ways to get over him. but then i realized that i'm not bitter and those ways aren't going to help me. i guess i'm really just not all that worried about getting over him. i still really like him, so whats the point of trying to make myself hate him just because he doesn't like me too. right? RIGHT?
so i'll just keep being his friend and it'll sizzle out eventually.
one thing i DO have to stop is dropping any and everything for him. no more of that!

feed your sheep a burning lamp

today, taylor inspired me to clean my room. in doing so, i found 6 books that i have begun to read but have not finished. my goal for the day is to finish 3 of the 6. i have finished 1 of the 3 so far.

and then it was the most beautiful day of my life and i went and ran some errands with aubsbobs and i sat in the front seat and put my feet out the window and became as comfortable as possible to enjoy that wonderful air. i went and applied at kneaders [hopefully that works out because i NEED a job.] then i went and returned a bra at victoria's secret because it was too big. [story of my life.] then i bought some cute best friend charms with aubrey at claire's in the mall.

overall, a productive day so far.

don't move so slow

something bad just happened.
i've been trying to keep it from happening for about a month now.
but i think its finally happened and i don't like it.
i also don't know how to undo it.