borders upon borders

today, i ordered five books. i didn't mean to order five. i meant to order three. the first three i picked out, cost $35.69 and i meant to pay $25 with the gift card that danny got me for christmas and put the other $10.69 on my card. but i'm retarded and somehow didn't understand how to use a gift card. SO, then i still had a $25 gift card and even though i was devastated at having bought $35 worth of books when i had 25 FREE dollars, i decided the FREE 25 dollars should not go to waste. so then i bought $25 dollars worth of other books.
overall, a good day.
here's what i got:


the virgin suicides by jeffrey euginides






everything is illuminated by jonathon safran foer







diary by chuck palahniuk







the mysteries of pittsburgh by michael chabon







such a pretty girl by laura wiess

hi. how are you?

i started painting my dresser.















can you see it? can you? i'm pretty satisfied.

i started work today as well. this is the first day of my life. actually, if i could pick a day to be the first day of my life, it hasn't happened yet. every option just seems like a bad way to start a life. things are getting better though. i do enjoy waking up and having responsibility. i enjoy knowing i can pay for things myself. and even some days, i wake up and i don't wish i was someone else.

i want to read a book that makes me thiiiink. middlesex is good but it hasn't led me to any new conclusions on life like rant and the bell jar did.

just now i tried to decide which of those two books [which i just recently read] changed my life more [or made me think about it more] and i honestly can't decide.

somehow this turned into a long rant about books when i really just want to write about you. but its better that i don't.

all the way

i just ransacked my ENTIRE apartment looking for my german book. it is GONE.

i'm watching deal or no deal and i'm getting so anxious and i want him to just take the money. that is a HUGE amount of money! he's gonna lose all of it!

feed your sheep a burning lamp

today, taylor inspired me to clean my room. in doing so, i found 6 books that i have begun to read but have not finished. my goal for the day is to finish 3 of the 6. i have finished 1 of the 3 so far.

and then it was the most beautiful day of my life and i went and ran some errands with aubsbobs and i sat in the front seat and put my feet out the window and became as comfortable as possible to enjoy that wonderful air. i went and applied at kneaders [hopefully that works out because i NEED a job.] then i went and returned a bra at victoria's secret because it was too big. [story of my life.] then i bought some cute best friend charms with aubrey at claire's in the mall.

overall, a productive day so far.

me gusta cuando callas

i have started too many books. i love them all though and want to read all of them at once. its hard though because i will spend a day reading one of them and getting into that story and the feeling of that particular writing and then the next day i want to read a different book and i lose the feeling of the first one.
books i am currently reading:
-speed of dark
-love in the time of cholera
-collected poems of pablo neruda
-book of lost things
-prozac nation
-life of pi
-all the pretty horses
all books that i have started but not finished this semester. i never wanted to be that kind of person that starts a book but doesn't finish it. i'm noticing more and more that i am becoming the type of person i never wanted to become in so many ways. although i still have a long list of books to finish, i'm always looking for more book recommendations.... anyone?